a disappearance is possible when there was first an appearance.
a light illuminates a room because it was first dark.
someone is unforgettable because he or she first made an appearance.

my mind is blank because it once had too many things in it.
But really,
it is all about a reluctance,
a reluctance to think, wait, and accept that there are only gaps.

when one makes that appearance, another inevitably bows, curtains fall, and he or she exeunts.
he or she disappears.

will you dance with me?

will she gently dance or dance without restraint?
as I let go of her hands (i never did)?

highlight the words to read them

and so the way is once again a grey tint.
but the way is always as it should be,
narrow but sure.

i won't survive on the luxury of hope.
i will survive on determinism.
on the inevitable moment of disappearances and appearances.

when my consciousness collide.
with the other.

i shall die once more.

die.live.dream.breathe.drink.eat.breathe.live.dream.eat.drink.work.sleep.work.sleep.die.live.love.

dream.live.die.eat.drink.think.think.think.think.think.eat.drink.sleep.work.breathe.break.die.sleep.
dream.live.eat.drink.think.work.work.work.work.wish.stare.watch.see.rest.rest.work.dream.
thinkof.her.die.

such that even pictures and videos wont save those moments
but i shall remember them.
remember as long as i can.