i'm keeping quiet for a while.

before they sound like:
Mmmm m mmmm mmm mm m mmmm mmmmmmm.......
and it did...i felt clumsy with my words...


so i'm keeping quiet...
then i will know what to do...
or even say.

but it scares me.

as much as it scares me to see how swift the dynamics changed.

and it makes me miserable more,
to find no words to express

the only confidence left,
is the prayer that resides at the tip of my tongue,

"And lead us not into temptation"

endings are beginnings.

it shouldn't be about me.
I died long time ago.

first and foremost,
have maturity to be stable and steadfast,
in a storm.

and that storms are there, that there may be a tongue to calm them

calm us.

(before we lose it....I hope I haven't lost it yet.)