those moments are always hardest. When they might be the last.
did that a few times. and indeed I don't see them for years.
unless it's a sick joke of destiny that I cannot escape. quick pace of escape eh.
not everything is that easy.

16 months. I totally appreciate the experience. Phew. it doesn't sound long but any day living with unrequited feelings is an eternity (as many can testify).

so here is my short testimony.

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love/hate
smile/frown
thesis/antithesis
sibling/nemesis
sense/
nonsense

swim - - - ming in pools of unresolved
portions of enigma

of nearness of you
but w i d e gaps


facetoface

so near
and so far

numbers and dates don't mean much

dreams did.

it's just the distance/nearness of you

missing, missed.

divisions. divisions. divisions. divisions.divisions. divisions.divisions. divisions.divisions. divisions.

but all in good time, for a greater purpose.


henceforth,

always a comma,

i write/stop writing to you,